MyCrazyLifeAgain

I am struggling real bad! Why you may ask? Because I am carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders and I feel like everything in my life is crashing down around me.  I mean everything! My Family My Home My Business My Career My Job My Future My Sense of Self Why? My Anxiety! People tell me I am using it as a crutch! No, I am not! That's the part that angers me the most! I never used to be this way, but I trusted someone who wasn't supposed to betray me and  guess what it happened anyway. Believe me when I say, I hate having a pain in my chest every day! I hate feeling like the other shoe is going to drop.  People do not understand the intensity of how it feels to have the nagging worry that something bad is going to happen ALL THE TIME! The worst thing is the anxiety and fear can have you make mistakes that you normally should and would not be making. Things that you should not have had happen. What can you do about it? NOTHING! I shou

Happy New Years Everyone! Last night I ended up falling asleep and only woke up when Robbie ran into the room, jumped on my bed and yelled Happy New Years Mommy! My twelve year old made it through and I did not. But in my defense, I felt so sick from a migraine and if you have ever had a migraine you will know you need to do anything to get rid of it.  After he woke me, I lay in bed just thinking about my goals for the upcoming year and how I am going to accomplish my goals for 2019! So I made this list so I can hold myself accountable if I fall to the wayside and try to give up. So instead of making a New Year's resolution I have to decide to make a 2019 game plan on all the following aspects in my life.  This list is in no particular order of importance of what I want to have done. Business As many know I do have a resell and homemade gift business. Last year my priorities fell by the wayside and I let things be as they are. This year, however, I want to move m