Friday, May 25, 2018

The Moon


"She was devoted to the moon

In it's darkness she found comfort

In its light she found hope"

-her thoughts 36


No matter what the season or how hot or cold it is there is nothing better than laying on a blanket watching the moon.


"Instead of being someones sun, be their moon and light up their most dark of times."


"No matter where we are in the world we are all looking at the same moon"


Even in the most dark of times there will always be moonlight to guide our way home. Never give up! Never give in! There is always a moon there to guide you.

--you are never alone
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Monday, May 21, 2018

Struggling

So I will admit I am struggling so much with things in my life right now. Seriously I am an adult and I should not have to struggle with people telling me I am not going anywhere and I am going to fail. Especially when it's me soon to be ex-husband or teenage daughters. You're all probably wondering why I am saying something. Because I know I am not the only person going through this right now and I know a lot of us ladies are going to hell. When my husband and I separated back in 03 I made enough money with my freelancing and crafting plus my job that supported my kids and me without my soon to be ex. My kids had what they needed and I did it on my own. Now those same kids are telling me that it's not good enough. REALLY ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!  This upsets me so much because these are the two teens who are now besties with dad because he would rather be their friend instead of their parent and let them do whatever they want. Well, I say no more. I work hard and have finally started making progress on both my freelance, blogging/writing and crafting/resale store. Ladies the only person who can decide your path is you so do just that.

However, let me give you some advice confront what people say head on because there are going to be haters. My soon to be ex-MIL tells everyone all these horrible things about myself and my home and people believe her because she is a fake Christian. (My home is in the midst of being remodeled by me!) My home needs TLC which I am slowly doing with the cleanout and remodel. As for the hate rumors I admit I eat my feelings. I gained 50 pounds since all this started and am only now starting to lose the weight. My weight has always been a struggle because I love to eat although I am active stress keeps the weight on. That and topped with a hernia and emotional issues I am lucky I have not gained more.

Most of all ladies you need to love yourself. I will admit I am overweight, my hair needs to be done, oh and my eyebrows need a waxing. I admit I have slacked and I am not one to preach it when I look like hell but tomorrow I am dedicating the day to taking care of myself! Because I am worth it and I don't care who says otherwise.

But most of all ladies remember that there will be times where people will try to hurt you and make you cry. It's hard to trust me I know. When my ex is home I have to hold in the tears and pray that none of them drop.  I can honestly say I was thrown away by the man I love not once but twice. But for me what's worse is he has also taught my 17 and 18 to do the same to not only me but to my youngest daughter because she told him and them that she doesn't approve of what he has done. It will get better ladies I promise! I have 1 guy in my life I can trust and that's the little boy who calls me mommy!  Despite being thrown away by my husband I still am a hopeless romantic and hope that one day I will find someone who will love me for me.

Well, all that's enough sap for now!
Till next time
Love and Blessings,
Angie


Tuesday, May 15, 2018

Whats Your Favorite Scary Movie?

I was actually watching a youtube video based on an old-school scary movie and realized that my kids are now old enough to watch the scary movies that I grew up on!

Beware there will be affiliate links so you can see which movies or their book I am talking about!

I was so happy because it takes a lot to scare my kids but also it is a coming of age thing for them as well! 
So whats your favorite scary movie? Do you have that one movie you have to wrap yourself in a blanket to watch? My favorite scary movie by far has been and always will be THE SHINING! Seriously Jack Nicholson coming through the door with the ax saying "Heres Johnny", Is my favorite horror scene of all time.
My first horror book was The Shining and I later picked up the sequel to it Dr. Sleep! (BTW if you have a teen or preteen who likes to read Dr. Sleep is on my no read list as it's not for the preteen crowd.)  Movies based on Steven King's books basically head up my list of scary movies! 

The next scary movie series I love is the 
Who cannot forget hearing the ominous song start ... "One Two Freddy's coming for you!"
I mean these movies are such a hit they brought Freddy back in a new movie in 2010!

Then you all have our Friday The 13th, Jason Movies!
Seriously Jason can't be killed they even rebooted the series in 2009! Camp Crystal Lake we thank you for bringing us Jason and come on everyone Jamie Lee Curtis as Jason's sister in the later movies!

Heck Even Freddy and Jason fight in out the movie


Then lets not forget these awesome solo movies,
Or these scary franchises that started up since the big boys up there took the screen:

Woman In Black Franchise
The Haunting Franchise
The Conjuring Franchise

So do you like any of these movies? Which movies scare you? Let me know in the comments below!


















Monday, May 14, 2018

Saving My Sanity!

--Update 5/15--
I did this post to show how bad things were. All I asked was it for it to be shared if someone could help ok and if not ok as well. I personally like working for everything in my life and will continue to do so.

Original Post 5/14
I never thought I would ever be put in a position that I would have to ask for help the way I am.  the fact that I am in this position honestly make me physically ill, to say the least. I am a hopeless romantic I used to believe marriage is forever and that love could conquer all. I am so wrong.

I live with a manipulative vindictive monster. He uses my anxiety, depression and bipolar disorder against me and uses my buttons to put me into attacks and fights. I want to take my kids and run.

You might want to know the whole story though. In 2013 he cheated on me and moved out to raise another women's family. In 2015 he claimed he made a mistake and was in love with me. God was I so stupid. I wish I could go back to my younger self and smack her. He came back because he had received a letter with what child support was going to make him pay every week.

Since he came home he has put me in a position to where my issues peak, where he has manipulated my two older teens into treating me worse than he does so they can do his dirty work. He has my 14 years old constantly questioning her position in his life. and worse thing he is teaching my son its okay to use people, to treat a woman like utter garbage and throw anyone who is not useful away.

My soon to be ex-husband has threatened to call the police on me for anything and everything. It has gotten so bad I had to call the Sheriffs office and file an incident report just in case he goes through with this.

He has destroyed me financially. He destroyed my car had me use all my funds to pay for household bills and groceries until I was bleed dry while he banked his money. Now I am stuck and this is what I need to do. Get a car so I have transportation to get to and from a job and take care of my kids. Uber is expensive when you are using it for everything.

I have been emotionally and verbally brought down to the point I can't do it alone anymore, I need help. If you can that's great. If you cant I understand all I ask is if you could pass this along to a friend that might be able to help. I also have an online store so if you don't want to donate through PayPal or my gofundme campaign I have gotten to the point I am selling a bunch of stuff and have reached over 1600+ items and I ship nationwide for actual shipping. 

I need to rescue myself and my kids from my husband before things get worse. My older teens have videos during my breakdowns where I say mean things and drop a pot of rice at their feet I won't deny it. I just want to rescue them before its too late. Their dad uses people and throws them away and I can't have that happen to my kids again. I am doing this behind my ex's back because the ramifications on this will be horrendous if he finds out.

All I ask if you can't help please just share the link to the blog post so maybe someone else can.

My PAYPAL Donation Link



GOFUNDME

Or my personal online store
THE CRAZY STORE

Sunday, May 13, 2018

Happy Mothers Day!


Happy Mothers Day


To all those amazing, hardworking moms out there I hope your day is full of Love, Great Food, and Family!

Tuesday, May 8, 2018

Crafters Beware 230 Days Till Christmas!

As Of This Post, There Are
230 DAYS
Until Christmas

Now I can hear you "WHY ANGIE WHY!"
Well, I am pointing it out because now because now is the time to get some shopping done on the cheap and you won't have to worry about the crunch later on. For those who know me already know that I am a Christmas fanatic!  From baking cookies to giving gifts. I do have one advantage though I am a professional crafter so making the people I love and care for gifts is not a bad thing for me. I have been known to dig into my own crafting store for the last minute gift for a child's friend or an unexpected event like a baby shower or wedding shower! However if your crafty put your uses to work for you and make yourself some gifts or do what I do now and look for the cheaper deals. That way come Black Friday you can sip your coffee and laugh at the people who are rushing to find the deals you already got months before.

So here are some great ways to save money for the holiday season.
There are some affiliate links to show you examples of what you can get to make your shopping easier.

Are you crafty? Do you have a bunch of younger family members running around? How about making them something super special? I loved when my Grandma would make me gifts. If you crochet or knit and just watch TV at night how about buying some of this yarn and make a few small Linus blankets? Or do you have a teen in your life that has to have one of those new nifty chunky blankets? Just a note on the chunky blankets be aware of where you buy them and if you can make one on your own because some store ones are made poorly and the good quality ones are very expensive. Or do you have that special lady (or guy) in your life who loves scarves?  A nice scarf can run you a pretty penny, however, by making a scarf you can show you care and you can find such pretty colors for the person your making them for.

So what about gifts that you should keep around during the holidays in case someone drops by? Or were you invited to a last-minute Christmas or holiday party? Or is it the last week of school before the holiday break and you forgot to get the teacher a small thank you?  I have a cheap and easy solution for that as well and you can get your craft on for this as well.  Decorate some wooden ornaments first. Use paint, markers or if you want to let your little ones get their crafting on crayons to decorate the ornaments. Add your new masterpieces to a candle wrapped in cellophane! I did this to 40 candles and let me tell you they lasted me 2 years of gift giving. Perfect to keep and easy to store.

What about that foodie in your life? Do they love the kitchen so much you should make them a bed in there? How about making them a personalized apron? Start with a plain apron. Then if you are like me and know a ton of foodies who are in desperate need of having the apron washed after a huge cooking or baking throw down I needlepoint a personalized picture and decorations.

Do you have a budding writer in your family? How about encouraging their creative side with a new journal, pens, and carry bag! You could decorate the carry bag to the personas taste and you become #1 in their book because you did a gift to their taste.

The last idea I have for you today is something I love to do. Do you ever go on sites like Pinterest and see all those cool quotes and saying made as signs? Did you ever think wow that would be so cool because that quote fits mom or dad? Or oh my sister loves the beach she would love that! Well, guess what you can make it as well. All it takes is some canvas paint and a bit of fun. This is by far one of my favorite crafts to do for the holiday season! But you do have to make a few tiny decisions. Which size canvas do you want to make? 11 by 148 by 10, 5 by 7. Then what are you going to use to make the picture Paint or Markers! I normally prefer paint myself, however, I have seen some amazing pictures done by fellow crafters where the artist used markers!

Well, I hope these Christmas crafting ideas helped you all out! I myself am making some blankets right now for select family members for Christmas. As I love to make things for the holiday season I am sure you will see some completed pics later on. Also, I love to share ideas so if you have one you would like to share or if your having a problem with a project message me in the comments below and I will be glad to help out with some advice.

Blessings, Love, and Happiness
To you all,

ANGIE


Sunday, May 6, 2018

The Utter Need To Do Something!

Have you ever woken up with the feel and drive to do something that you have not done happily in a while? This morning for the first time in over a year I woke up with the feeling of want and need to bake. Not because I had to because I could get snacks at the store down the road but because I had the feeling to create and bake. This to me is a huge step in the right direction for me and I am so happy that I woke up feeling this way. Because I feel happy and less anxious than I have been. However, it scares me a bit as well because I do not want to lose this amazing feeling today. My sister-in-law Pam used to joke with me that I should open a food truck and serve nothing but cookies and coffee... To be honest I often contemplated if I could do it. Could I make a passion of mine into a viable business? But for now, I will just be the crazy cookie lady at home!

*note because I am always asked* the top of the cookies are not made with a special tool or anything I use a mini ice cream scoop to measure my cookie dough so that all my cookies come out the same size. When you do as much baking as I do it comes in handy. I have gotten my last 3 off amazon and here is the affiliate link to it HERE. I like it because it's durable and cheap but my kids like to break them in hard as rock icecream or accidentally throw them out! Joys of having teens.

So "Happy" is the word of the day today and happy I will be!  I hope you all have an amazing Sunday with family and friends or just curling up with a good book.

Blessings and Love to you all!
-Angie

PS. I couldn't say I baked and not add the recipe. This recipe is for a double batch of chocolate sugar cookies.


Chocolate Sugar Cookies

5 1/2 Cups Flour
2 Teaspoons Baking Soda
1/2  teaspoon salt
2  Cups Butter
3 Cups Sugar
2 Eggs
3 Teaspoons Vanilla
(Buy it in bulk like I do makes it easier when needing it later also its cheaper this way.)
1/4 cup sugar to roll cookies

Mix all Ingredients together and set aside in fridge 10 min. I always use cooking spray on my pans. Scoop out cookies to the desired size! Cook at 350 degrees for 11-12 minutes.  

Ok, everyone, all ovens are different I use a Kenmore gas stove/ovens and my cookies stay in 11 minutes. Electric ovens and convection ovens will take a longer or shorter time. Learn about your oven so you know how well it bakes.