Wednesday, July 10, 2019

Losing a Loved One!

25 Best Grief Quotes To Share With Someone Dealing With The Loss Of A Loved One | YourTango

So I debated on writing this for a while, but I think there has to be something for grief. Our grief shows us that we are still alive.  However, one thing that we are never told is grief no longer how long the person we lost is gone, does not fade away. I wish people would be honest and just admit that losing someone you love and care about is hard. It's a gut wrenching feeling that hurts you both emotionally, physically and spiritually for a long time.

I mention this because eight years ago today I lost my Grams.  This woman kept me safe from the monster of the world. She was not afraid to tell me that there are secrets in my family and that I do matter.  She taught me more about life than anyone else and the pain I feel is a harsh reminder that I will never see her again.  I finally had to remove her contact from my phone because I would try calling her up till a few months ago.

Through the pain and grief you do eventually wake to a new type of life. I have learned to channel my grief to make it through. The pain does lift until you have days that are harsh reminders. But even on these days, it's okay to cry. It's okay to curse everything around you while you deal with your grief. It's okay to feel what you feel. Surround yourself with the ones you love. Shed the tears that you try to hold in and just be.


Tuesday, July 9, 2019

A Crazy Adventure

So I have been back to sporadic postings again and I am truly sorry.  To be honest, my life has been completely upside down. I think it's time to be honest about what's going on because there are going to be  few related posts pertaining to some of my life coming up soon that might not be too bright and cheery!

First and foremost, I love my blog and the people I have come to know along the way. However, life is a funny thing and when you think something good is happening you can actually have your soul crushed. So let's get the truth out there.

I am losing my home. When I had lost my job back in January 2018 my ex was paying the mortgage plus some bills and I was paying for food, some utilities and the children's expenses. I never even saw a mortgage bill. Well, I still paid my bills as I had severance and unemployment. I had since found a job and was waiting for training to start. I had stuck extra money away and had picked up odd jobs so when unemployment ended, I would be able to keep financially until I went through training and started my job. Well mid October I received a letter from the mortgage company, we were almost six months behind on our mortgage. My ex had stopped paying the mortgage and never bothered to tell me. When I confronted him about why he hasn't paid it, he said to teach me a lesson. WHAT!!! I asked what lesson? I never got a real answer. I am currently working with the lawyer's office handling the foreclosure to get an extension and cash for keys so I can get the kids into a place locally that we can afford. Or else I am gonna have to move out of the county and I really do not want to do that, especially since Sarah is in the culinary arts program at her high school. 

I have thankfully found a job which I can work from home! I do customer service and work as an independent contractor. This is great as my anxiety is through the roof and it's hard to even go food shopping.  I have also started doing more online freelancing because I am trying to be the best me possible and support my kids.

Speaking of anxiety! Mine has been horrible to the point were my nights are more tossing and turning than sleeping.  Before I lost my medical insurance, my doctor had suggested possibly being seen by a disability doctor because my anxiety can be debilitating and he was afraid I would have an attack at the wrong place at the wrong time.

But Angie what about the EX? Yeah, no he is definitely an EX which makes me sad because once upon a time he was my best friend and not only did I lose my husband I also lost my best friend. This week would have been our 20 year wedding anniversary. He has decided to have a relationship with a child and when I mean child the girl is the same age as my oldest. He has been busted, he knows it and he still denies the relationship with her. She can have him! I do however feel bad for her because she is with someone that cannot even man up now that he is busted for cheating again and say yeah we are dating. As I am the second spouse, he is divorcing along with other failed relationships he has yet to look in the mirror and think wow maybe its me not them. But that's on him not me.

As the craziness continue in the next few months I have the insanity of packing up not only my home of twenty years but also packing up my resale and crafting business. As the weather continues to cause rain and high heat that triggers my heat sickness, I am trying to pack my storage and workshop up. It has been a battle, but I will get through this as best as I can. 

My priority is first and foremost, my kids in this whole mess. It's been so hard getting through this and we know there will be a lot of sacrifices but we will be okay. I am trying to keep my promise to continue adding new content, however, life has a funny way of getting in the way of doing what one wants to do.





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Sunday, May 12, 2019

Happy Mothers Day!

Motherhood HR Funny Mothers Day Card

Happy Mother's Day to all the amazing Mom's out there!!!

Florida Hidden Gem 'Sunken Gardens'

So I love to travel, my wallet does not.  My wallet laughs and says you can take a walk around the park!  However, just because I cannot travel everywhere I want doesn't mean we can't enjoy the sites and sounds from around the world. 

HISTORY FACT'S!

Sunken Gardens began in 1903 when a gardener purchased land which is located in historic St Petersburg, Florida.  The land included a lake which was below sea level and when it was drained created the Sunken Garden!  However, per the sign at the bottom center of the garden it states that it was a sinkhole not a lake. 

When the Gardens first opened to the public entry was only 25 cents and even today family yearly passes are priced so the entire family can come visit! In 1999 St. Pete purchased the Gardens and it is now registered with the national registry of historic places. The Garden also boasts over fifty thousand different flowers and plants. It also offers, events, weddings and educational classes and programs. 

When I went to the Gardens a few years ago and I had an amazing time walking through and just relaxing in the tranquility of the gardens. There are some lore and legends attached to the Garden. The first being the "Growing Stone". I sat on the stone I did not feel tranquil or relaxed!

Gardens

Then, while I was in the butterfly garden which was so relax I was speaking with a photographer who was doing close ups of the butterflies I was randomly snapping pictures and I came up with the following picture. There was no one in the area, but the photographer, my kids and me. Where she stands is flowers not a path I actually called and asked the park about this spot and was told that the woman in the picture would have had to break the plants where she is standing. Apparently there is supposed to be a few ghosts in different sections of the gardens.

Sunken Gardens... Person was not there when we took the picture she appears in  few pics

I am hoping that in the future to start doing some traveling again and being able to bring you tons of pictures of my travels! Until then, if you check out my link HERE you can see all my pictures from my Sunken Gardens adventure! 

Tuesday, May 7, 2019

Last Minute Mother's Day Ideas

I know I usually post a week or two prior to a holiday, however, things have been a bit crazy lately! So let's get this party started and celebrate all things mom! If you are shopping last minute, here are a list of fun, humorous and sparkly things to get mom through Amazon with prime shipping to guarantee it will be here for Sunday May 12th!  All these gifts are listed for under $10 so these gifts will not break the bank. These are affiliate links and knowing some of my readers some of these products are chosen for the moms wit the warped sense of humor!

Journals


Books



Home





Candles



Spa Sets





Tees




Sparkly




Or if you have that mom who is difficult to shop for or who says they don't need anything try going with gift cards!


 
Or looking for something bigger let Amazon help you!


But most of all, remember your mom this Mothers Day! Come on she pees a little every time she sneezes because of you!

To all the moms out there blessings and love and Happy Mothers Day!
-Angie

Thursday, March 7, 2019

Lets Find A Sparkly Bargain!

It has been brought to my attention that I failed some people in the Valentines Day bargain hunt! Why you may ask? I did not post my deals like I had in the past! I am truly sorry for those I disappointed, but life has been crazy. I hope to make up for it now with not just five, but ten items I have found on Amazon for under $5 with free shipping! (Please be aware that the free shipping can change per the seller, but at the time of this article there was no shipping.) No prime membership needed either! Please be aware as always with these posts these are affiliate links!





















Okay ladies and gents! There you have it! Ten fun and sparkly items off amazon with free shipping! All of these items came up to $21.00 before tax! I love the thrill of finding stuff on the cheap! I love shopping at thrift stores and finding some amazing deals! Are you looking for anything? Do you want me to find you some awesome deals on the cheap? Let me know in the comments below and I will see what we can find you!

Blessings, Love and Happy Shopping!

Angie




Sunday, February 24, 2019

Spring Flower Oddities!


I will admit Fall is my favorite season, However, I love Spring flowers!

If you go to my Pinterest page I have a few boards dedicated to nature and plants!  One thing I do love is how beautiful and different they can be! I have always had a fascination with odd looking flowers so I decided to do something fun and show you some of my favorites.

Laughing orchid
The Laughing Iris

Parrot flower
The Parrot Flower

Ophrys apulica - Photo courtesy of T. H. Pain and the Orchids of France and Europe    ..z
Ophrys apulica

Flowers Like Jeweled Carpet by Morganglines
Jeweled Car
Orchid that looks like praying monks
Praying Monks
Flying Duck Orchid
Flying Duck
Ghost Pipe - Emily Dickinson referred to this odd looking wildflower as “the preferred flower of life.” Perhaps the most curious aspect of Ghost Pipe is its color.  It doesn’t have chlorophyll like most plants, which means that it cannot produce its own food through photosynthesis.  Instead, it receives its nutrients from mycorrhizal fungi, a complex system of underground fungus that feeds the Ghost Pipe with nutrients from tree roots.
Ghost Pipe
Monkey Orchid (Orchis simia)
Monkey Orchid
Dracula saulii is an epiphytic orchid in   the genus Dracula. And these two look like a pair of   monkeys...!
Dracula Sauli
So what do you think? I personally think these flowers are beautiful!  Have you ever seen a plant that looks like something else? Share below if you have.

Blessings and Prayers,

Angie