Wednesday, July 10, 2019

Losing a Loved One!

25 Best Grief Quotes To Share With Someone Dealing With The Loss Of A Loved One | YourTango

So I debated on writing this for a while, but I think there has to be something for grief. Our grief shows us that we are still alive.  However, one thing that we are never told is grief no longer how long the person we lost is gone, does not fade away. I wish people would be honest and just admit that losing someone you love and care about is hard. It's a gut wrenching feeling that hurts you both emotionally, physically and spiritually for a long time.

I mention this because eight years ago today I lost my Grams.  This woman kept me safe from the monster of the world. She was not afraid to tell me that there are secrets in my family and that I do matter.  She taught me more about life than anyone else and the pain I feel is a harsh reminder that I will never see her again.  I finally had to remove her contact from my phone because I would try calling her up till a few months ago.

Through the pain and grief you do eventually wake to a new type of life. I have learned to channel my grief to make it through. The pain does lift until you have days that are harsh reminders. But even on these days, it's okay to cry. It's okay to curse everything around you while you deal with your grief. It's okay to feel what you feel. Surround yourself with the ones you love. Shed the tears that you try to hold in and just be.


Tuesday, July 9, 2019

A Crazy Adventure

So I have been back to sporadic postings again and I am truly sorry.  To be honest, my life has been completely upside down. I think it's time to be honest about what's going on because there are going to be  few related posts pertaining to some of my life coming up soon that might not be too bright and cheery!

First and foremost, I love my blog and the people I have come to know along the way. However, life is a funny thing and when you think something good is happening you can actually have your soul crushed. So let's get the truth out there.

I am losing my home. When I had lost my job back in January 2018 my ex was paying the mortgage plus some bills and I was paying for food, some utilities and the children's expenses. I never even saw a mortgage bill. Well, I still paid my bills as I had severance and unemployment. I had since found a job and was waiting for training to start. I had stuck extra money away and had picked up odd jobs so when unemployment ended, I would be able to keep financially until I went through training and started my job. Well mid October I received a letter from the mortgage company, we were almost six months behind on our mortgage. My ex had stopped paying the mortgage and never bothered to tell me. When I confronted him about why he hasn't paid it, he said to teach me a lesson. WHAT!!! I asked what lesson? I never got a real answer. I am currently working with the lawyer's office handling the foreclosure to get an extension and cash for keys so I can get the kids into a place locally that we can afford. Or else I am gonna have to move out of the county and I really do not want to do that, especially since Sarah is in the culinary arts program at her high school. 

I have thankfully found a job which I can work from home! I do customer service and work as an independent contractor. This is great as my anxiety is through the roof and it's hard to even go food shopping.  I have also started doing more online freelancing because I am trying to be the best me possible and support my kids.

Speaking of anxiety! Mine has been horrible to the point were my nights are more tossing and turning than sleeping.  Before I lost my medical insurance, my doctor had suggested possibly being seen by a disability doctor because my anxiety can be debilitating and he was afraid I would have an attack at the wrong place at the wrong time.

But Angie what about the EX? Yeah, no he is definitely an EX which makes me sad because once upon a time he was my best friend and not only did I lose my husband I also lost my best friend. This week would have been our 20 year wedding anniversary. He has decided to have a relationship with a child and when I mean child the girl is the same age as my oldest. He has been busted, he knows it and he still denies the relationship with her. She can have him! I do however feel bad for her because she is with someone that cannot even man up now that he is busted for cheating again and say yeah we are dating. As I am the second spouse, he is divorcing along with other failed relationships he has yet to look in the mirror and think wow maybe its me not them. But that's on him not me.

As the craziness continue in the next few months I have the insanity of packing up not only my home of twenty years but also packing up my resale and crafting business. As the weather continues to cause rain and high heat that triggers my heat sickness, I am trying to pack my storage and workshop up. It has been a battle, but I will get through this as best as I can. 

My priority is first and foremost, my kids in this whole mess. It's been so hard getting through this and we know there will be a lot of sacrifices but we will be okay. I am trying to keep my promise to continue adding new content, however, life has a funny way of getting in the way of doing what one wants to do.





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Sunday, May 12, 2019

Happy Mothers Day!

Motherhood HR Funny Mothers Day Card

Happy Mother's Day to all the amazing Mom's out there!!!

Florida Hidden Gem 'Sunken Gardens'

So I love to travel, my wallet does not.  My wallet laughs and says you can take a walk around the park!  However, just because I cannot travel everywhere I want doesn't mean we can't enjoy the sites and sounds from around the world. 

HISTORY FACT'S!

Sunken Gardens began in 1903 when a gardener purchased land which is located in historic St Petersburg, Florida.  The land included a lake which was below sea level and when it was drained created the Sunken Garden!  However, per the sign at the bottom center of the garden it states that it was a sinkhole not a lake. 

When the Gardens first opened to the public entry was only 25 cents and even today family yearly passes are priced so the entire family can come visit! In 1999 St. Pete purchased the Gardens and it is now registered with the national registry of historic places. The Garden also boasts over fifty thousand different flowers and plants. It also offers, events, weddings and educational classes and programs. 

When I went to the Gardens a few years ago and I had an amazing time walking through and just relaxing in the tranquility of the gardens. There are some lore and legends attached to the Garden. The first being the "Growing Stone". I sat on the stone I did not feel tranquil or relaxed!

Gardens

Then, while I was in the butterfly garden which was so relax I was speaking with a photographer who was doing close ups of the butterflies I was randomly snapping pictures and I came up with the following picture. There was no one in the area, but the photographer, my kids and me. Where she stands is flowers not a path I actually called and asked the park about this spot and was told that the woman in the picture would have had to break the plants where she is standing. Apparently there is supposed to be a few ghosts in different sections of the gardens.

Sunken Gardens... Person was not there when we took the picture she appears in  few pics

I am hoping that in the future to start doing some traveling again and being able to bring you tons of pictures of my travels! Until then, if you check out my link HERE you can see all my pictures from my Sunken Gardens adventure! 

Tuesday, May 7, 2019

Last Minute Mother's Day Ideas

I know I usually post a week or two prior to a holiday, however, things have been a bit crazy lately! So let's get this party started and celebrate all things mom! If you are shopping last minute, here are a list of fun, humorous and sparkly things to get mom through Amazon with prime shipping to guarantee it will be here for Sunday May 12th!  All these gifts are listed for under $10 so these gifts will not break the bank. These are affiliate links and knowing some of my readers some of these products are chosen for the moms wit the warped sense of humor!

Journals


Books



Home





Candles



Spa Sets





Tees




Sparkly




Or if you have that mom who is difficult to shop for or who says they don't need anything try going with gift cards!


 
Or looking for something bigger let Amazon help you!


But most of all, remember your mom this Mothers Day! Come on she pees a little every time she sneezes because of you!

To all the moms out there blessings and love and Happy Mothers Day!
-Angie

Thursday, March 7, 2019

Lets Find A Sparkly Bargain!

It has been brought to my attention that I failed some people in the Valentines Day bargain hunt! Why you may ask? I did not post my deals like I had in the past! I am truly sorry for those I disappointed, but life has been crazy. I hope to make up for it now with not just five, but ten items I have found on Amazon for under $5 with free shipping! (Please be aware that the free shipping can change per the seller, but at the time of this article there was no shipping.) No prime membership needed either! Please be aware as always with these posts these are affiliate links!





















Okay ladies and gents! There you have it! Ten fun and sparkly items off amazon with free shipping! All of these items came up to $21.00 before tax! I love the thrill of finding stuff on the cheap! I love shopping at thrift stores and finding some amazing deals! Are you looking for anything? Do you want me to find you some awesome deals on the cheap? Let me know in the comments below and I will see what we can find you!

Blessings, Love and Happy Shopping!

Angie




Sunday, February 24, 2019

Spring Flower Oddities!


I will admit Fall is my favorite season, However, I love Spring flowers!

If you go to my Pinterest page I have a few boards dedicated to nature and plants!  One thing I do love is how beautiful and different they can be! I have always had a fascination with odd looking flowers so I decided to do something fun and show you some of my favorites.

Laughing orchid
The Laughing Iris

Parrot flower
The Parrot Flower

Ophrys apulica - Photo courtesy of T. H. Pain and the Orchids of France and Europe    ..z
Ophrys apulica

Flowers Like Jeweled Carpet by Morganglines
Jeweled Car
Orchid that looks like praying monks
Praying Monks
Flying Duck Orchid
Flying Duck
Ghost Pipe - Emily Dickinson referred to this odd looking wildflower as “the preferred flower of life.” Perhaps the most curious aspect of Ghost Pipe is its color.  It doesn’t have chlorophyll like most plants, which means that it cannot produce its own food through photosynthesis.  Instead, it receives its nutrients from mycorrhizal fungi, a complex system of underground fungus that feeds the Ghost Pipe with nutrients from tree roots.
Ghost Pipe
Monkey Orchid (Orchis simia)
Monkey Orchid
Dracula saulii is an epiphytic orchid in   the genus Dracula. And these two look like a pair of   monkeys...!
Dracula Sauli
So what do you think? I personally think these flowers are beautiful!  Have you ever seen a plant that looks like something else? Share below if you have.

Blessings and Prayers,

Angie

Wednesday, February 20, 2019

Feeling Safe In Your Home!


Funny Cat refrigerator magnet 2 1/2x 3 " #cats #funnypics #funnymemes #funnypictures

But seriously, I need to vent! So in my home there is, my children, my pets and my kids dad live here as well.  Now I have NEVER been the type of lady to swoon and say protect me. I do not think it's in my DNA.  However, as a mom with children there are some things that a mother would expect from the father of her children.  Two nights ago I woke up to a crash coming from the dining room.  I look at my clock and it was just after eleven so here I am thinking my kids dad who sleeps in the living room would be up searching whatever made the noise. Nope, I peek out the door and he is snoring. I grabbed my sewing scissors for protection and leave my room and the first thing I do is check on my younger two and they are fast asleep. I head towards my oldest daughters room and find she was not home yet and then I find the reason for the bang that woke me.  

See I have a rescue Cat named Rambo. Rambo will find his travel carrier no matter where it is and loves to sleep in it so I had it sitting on a storage dresser in the dining room. Because he has been in it lately a lot.  His basket of toys, empty food dish and his travel carrier were in a pile on the ground. Basically, my cat had thrown a temper tantrum because he is on a diet and dumped everything off the top of the dresser.  Yeah, he does that. Am I mad? Of course not!

What upset me was I put the kitchen light on to pick up the mess and that's when the kids' dad wakes up.  Mind you he wakes up complaining because the light is on. I asked did you not hear the loud crash? He responded 'NO!' I got upset and asked what would have happened if someone was breaking into the house? He shrugged, said so what turned over and went back to sleep! I was seeing red at that point. That was not the reaction or the answer I would have expected from him.  My first thought was who are you? I would cut someone with my sewing scissors if you messed with my family. I honestly did not feel safe with the attitude and reaction he gave for a while that night.

So you're probably thinking Angie, what's the point of this rant!  Ladies and gents, if you live alone with your kids do not expect your partner to be a super hero and know how to defend yourself. At the end of the day you can only depend on you!

Blessings and Love,
Angie


Sunday, February 17, 2019

Becoming Your Own Goddess!

I will admit that I have gone through a lot. In the past twelve months I can say I have definitely had a bunch of life challenges I needed to go through. I was also faced with a bunch of decisions that needed to be made.  To be honest. I feel like I have gone from scared little peasant to finally allowing my inner Goddess to start to shine. Sounds cliche right? Well, let me explain.

As most people know I have gone through some serious marriage problems in the last few years. These problems have led me to recognize some serious hard truths about my life and my marriage's future in it.  After a lot of self reflection, prayers and soul searching, I have discovered I am not in a good place and need to fix my future not only for myself but for my children. I have been beaten down to believe that everything and anything is my fault. Then not only that, but I am not worth anything.  It took a large eye opening journey to realize that I am worth not only worth it, but I have more value than I have been given credit for.

All this self realization brought me to see what I needed to see.  I started on a journey this past August to get back to myself and I have finally started seeing myself as the person I wanted to be.  I have started stepping up on my blog and working hard to actually get back into adding content that is not only relevant, but what also makes me happy to write about.  On top of all of that I have been actively been working on the Blogs Gift and Resale store! My confidence is finally returning! This has also helped me with my main job as well by having more confidence.

This self realization and confidence have taught me a lot about my personal life.  The biggest thing is I do not need to have the approval of my partner to be happy.  WHAT!!! That's right, I said it!  My partner decided he wanted to throw away our marriage because it was too much work.  Then I realized that was his problem, not mine.  All the people I know who have successful marriages say marriage is hard and trying, but you don't walk away or give up. A real Goddess will stick around and fight for what they want until you see the battle is over. 

So how does this all help you bring out your inner Goddess? Easy your inner Goddess comes out with your experiences in life.  Then you need self determination as well. I myself am working with a determination to bring my blog and store back like I had three years ago. Making sure my inventory is quality and my gift store has more items has been a great experience! I am also working hard with my freelancing so I can support my babies. But not only all of that I have started getting my confidence back and am working my main job with gusto.

However, the biggest thing about letting out your inner Goddess is being yourself and do not tolerate anything. For example, when the kid's father is home, I am normally shut away in my room/office.  This normally causes me to do nothing in the house and being absolutely miserable. Not today! Today I made a point to actually be out in other rooms in my house and actually had a fantastic day! I was productive and active, I felt happy and relaxed with everything I had completed today!

My best advice as someone who is figuring everything out still is you need to start making yourself happy in order to bring out your inner Goddess!

-Blessings and Love
Angie






Tuesday, February 12, 2019

Heritage Propane, AmeriGas and Rinnai Oh My!

Hey all! For those who know me well know it takes a lot for me to post positive reviews. Well, guess what this is a not so positive review because I am completely irritated. So sit back and be ready to hear about my experience with the three listed above.

So back in 2012 my gas bill with Heritage Propane was horribly high and we had discovered that the hot water tank we had in our home was part of the problem. The tank ran however, it was running on borrowed time. At the time my home had increased in size with my sister and father living with us and having five kids living at home as well I needed to come up with a solution and soon. I started looking at different hot water tanks. I was looking at tankless or tank, size of tanks, warranties, all the bells and whistles. When I go to buy an appliance I will do my research.  Finally, with all the pro's and con's weighed out I decided to go with the Rinnai Tankless Water Heater Model RV53i. The reason I decided to go with this particular model was because of the warranty that I was told it would have between Rinnai and Heritage Propane and the discounts that was supposed to be  with the unit as well from a government rebate program at the time.  I was told that it had a twelve year parts and labor warranty plus a large amounts of rebates. During the installation I was reading through the manual and questioned the "warranty" because it said something different in the Rinnai manual. I was told it was through Heritage Propane and that it would be covered through Heritage Propane.  I asked about special maintenance! Again, I was told no and was reassured if there were to be any problems I just had to call the office and they would get someone to come out and take care of the problem. 

A week later I had realized that I never received the itemized bill for the purchase and what rebates that were applied as there was supposed to a few rebates we were eligible to receive with the installation of the Tankless hot water heater. I kept getting the line, we will have to get back to you on it.  A few weeks later AmeriGas took over Heritage Propane.  Now the thing is nothing changed in the office that was Heritage Propane except the store location was the name of the company. A week after it changed over to Amerigas I went in to pay my gas bill and again questioned about the itemized bill.  Same people, same office and was told sorry we do not have access to that anymore.  I asked for the corporate phone number as I was mad about the run around.  Was told they would get me the information.  Joking I remember saying what no statement I guess I don't have to pay the bill. I was told flat out rather rudely they would charge me a late charge and shut off my service. That was another thing the hot water tank was supposed to be a completely separate account in my name and they combined it in with my ex's account. One month last year we stopped getting the monthly charge for it and when I called into question a final bill and statement they said sorry you're not on the account so we are not speaking with you.  I paid for the tank but since they didn't add my name on it, they would not speak with me about the hot water tank.

Fast forward to February 8, 2019, I woke up to start my organization experiment that morning and go to start a load of laundry and there is water leaking out of the hot water tank and I had a layer of water all over my laundry room..  I call the Amerigas 1-800 phone number for the emergency service and get a woman on the line and explain what was going on.  I told her I just needed to find out how to shut the water going into the tank off because the Rinnai instructions do not give any indication on  how to do that. The lady was rude, disrespectful and apparently does not listen to a word someone says because when a local tech called me to talk me through how to shut the water off I apparently had a flood through my basement. I do not have a basement. The repair technician was great and he told me how to shut off the water and laughed because of my mysterious basement flood. He also was nice and said he would have the company contact me with the information I would need when he gets to the office.

Then I waited as it was only 6:30 in the morning and nothing opens until 8am.  A little after 9am I get a call from the AmeriGas office and they confirm when the item was installed. They said I will have to call a plumber to fix it. I said this is under warranty through the gas company do they reimburse whatever the charges are or does the water company bill Amerigas? She told us to call Charlie's Plumbing here in Spring Hill. I call Charlie's Plumbing and the first person I spoke with stated did you call Rinnai? I asked why would I do that as it's all supposed to be covered through Amerigas. He suggested I call Rinnai because if the part he thought it was, it would need authorization and then call them back and they will do a free consultation to see what is wrong with the unit. Here starts the downfall.

I called Rinnai and spoke to a very nice young lady and she said that the part would be covered if and only if the maintenance was done regularly.  I asked her what maintenance? She stated that you had to do a vinegar rinse every six months. WHAT!!! I explained I called Rinnai when we first got the unit to make sure it was registered and was told when I originally called that I had to do nothing special to the unit by both Rinnai and Heritage Propane. She explained the part that was more than likely the problem is very expensive and that it would be cheaper to replace the unit. She even went as far as to tell me a replacement unit's model number to consider because the repair is very time consuming.  She did state though that she added notes to the account and to call back if there is any problems. She also stated that Amerigas is an authorized repair service provider for the unit itself.

So I call back Amerigas. I explain everything that I had in my notes from the original purchase and what I was told by Rinnai. I have the workers' names from the office and the installation who all confirmed that it was a twelve year parts and labor guarantee. I explained that Rinnai even stated that AmeriGas could do all the repairs.  I was told flat out NO.  I stated so, then Amerigas is not going to honor, the Heritage Propane warranty? I was given a big NO. I asked if there was someone above the office staff I could speak with and was told no and very bluntly -NOTHING WILL BE DONE.

I did have the free consultation from Charlie's Plumbing and they are great people. The tech that came to my house talked to me about the issue and could not even see a leak and he had stuff running for about a 30 minutes and nothing.  I asked him about flushing the system like Rinnai had said and was told the gas would have to be shut off to the unit in order to flush it and then relit later that day. The tech was honest with me telling me unless you have done plumbing you should NOT do it on your own you could actually mess up the unit. I later confirmed this with two other plumbing companies in the Tampa Bay Area that deal with Rinnai products.  The tech who came out suggested that if I am worried about the leak I could make sure the water was shut off during times of non use.  I am doing exactly that! Because the cost of the repair is $1100 with the part and the cost of a new tank or tankless hot water heater is around $1200.

During this whole mess I keep questioning is there a solution? Well, it would have been for AmeriGas to honor the warranty that Heritage stated multiple times I had. Or for Heritage to not promise something that they had no intention of delivering on. I would not have chosen to go with Heritage Propane if it had not been for the 12 year parts and labor warranty I was promised. So be careful and buyer beware!

Springfield Real Estate Agents Advice on Buyer Beware Signs!








Sunday, February 3, 2019

Becoming Organized! A One Week Challenge!

The Problem!

So normally I am a pretty organized person. I can usually get everything I need to get finished, completed and have time to spare. However, recently I have been struggling badly!  I have had some people who are close to me saying you're taking on too much and you're putting too much  pressure on yourself.  The thing is I have to do everything I have taken on because if I don't who will handle it? I am a Mom, Teacher, Home Guru, Business Owner, Freelancer, Professional Crafter and Independent Contractor!  The last four are how I make money to help support my children and myself.  If I don't handle business I do not have anyone else who can do it!

I watched a video blog post on Facebook last night about a woman who tried the Navy Seal 4:30am wake up challenge for five days. Let's be honest though for everyone who really knows me, you know if I get stuck on a project late at night I will be going to bed at one or two in the morning.  So that is a huge not happening in my book.  So I am going to be a little more reasonable. I am going to shoot for a 5:30am-6am wake up call. 

What I Want To Accomplish!

Then I made a list of things I wanted to accomplish more along with my day job of being an independent contractor.  Now this list is in no particular order!

1. Focus on my daily crafting projects for my gift store.

2. Being able to freelance more to earn more money.

3. Not feeling like I am rushing when I am cleaning the house and doing chores.

4. Maintaining the blog and doing multiple articles and updates every week.

5. Working on the next book I have set for publication as well as getting some book plot lines published in the book section of the blog.

6. Getting my exercise on! Yes, I walk and do cardio as well as yoga and have been losing weight, however, I am stuck on a wall at 220 pounds. The problem is at 8pm when I was used to doing it, I am normally exhausted and all I want to do is sit and relax.
7. Not rushing to make meals during the day or deserts. I really miss having the time to cook and enjoy the food.

8. Being able to have more one on one time for Robbie's Homeschooling.

9. Having time to take care of myself. Seriously,  I want some me time to meditate or even just shave my legs.

10. Making time for things I enjoy.

So how am I going to accomplish all of these goals this week? That is easy I plan on organizing myself a bit more and getting a game plan underway.

Sunday Night 2-3-2019

Well, I did my walk this afternoon so I could be rested tonight and ready for my start in the morning. This early to bed idea hinged on getting Robbie to bed at a decent time.  However, his dad told him "Yeah, go play your video game you can stay up." Then he went out and left getting Robbie to bed my deal. I explained to Robbie that I want to go to bed so he has to go to bed and he is a smart kid so we are almost to bed.

The next thing I did was I decided was dinner for Monday!  I decided Vegetarian Taco Soup!  Super simple and I had everything in the cabinet since its an open and dump crock pot recipe.  Since I wasn't sure on how the kids would like the soup I am only making a small batch of it, so I cut the recipe down by half just so we can try it. I hate waste and throwing out food and my kids can either say yes, we like it or no we hate it so we will see. I know breakfast and lunch is handled with the food in the fridge so I feel good knowing that I organized myself in this small part of my life. 

After I decided dinner and got that organized I sat down and made sure that Robbie's assignment list is ready to go in the morning so we can do all his assignments for the week.  I do this so he knows the bare minimum he has to do during the week  and there is less arguing.

Well. I finally am getting Robbie down to sleep at 10pm so I am off to get some sleep myself! See you all between 5:30a and 6am.


May the goddess and gods be merciful!

Monday, 2-4-2019

Had a super hard time getting up today, so I did not roll out of bed until 6am.  I feel okay, however, I went to get toilet paper to put in the bathroom and discovered that the tankless hot water heater had sprung a leak and my entire laundry room floor had water all over it.  Call the emergency line to see what the option could be since the manual didn't even tell you how to shut the water off to it.  When I talked to the national emergency line to find out how to shut the water off.  When he called he had stated that the call center rep told the local technician that my basement was flooded.... I have a basement? I explained I needed to find out how to shut the water off as it was leaking. He laughed about it and said not flooded? I explained I was in there at 11:45pm and had put hand towels in the basket and nothing was wet when I reached into the basket the basket was soaked as well as the floor, so this had to have happened over night! The technician is getting my information in so we can see if its under warranty still (it should be) and is going to call me back asap! Thankfully its not a huge drip and I have a bucket under it now.

 A perk of being up this early I am almost done with the cleanup from this water leaking.  The bad thing is that unless I was to call an emergency plumber nothing is open yet!

So how was your morning so far?

2:06 Pm- Today had been a very trying day and I almost scrapped the experiment. Almost! Still getting things done and moving, however, due to events beyond my control I am having a hard time dealing with things right now.

8:43 pm- Well, I made it and I am exhausted!  After the whole waking to a leaking hot water tank and the garbage that came along with that I did accomplish more than what I thought!  I hope that tomorrow is a bit better, but that will have to wait.


Tuesday, 2-5-2019

7:07am and I could not get up this morning. I slept through my alarm at 5:30 and could not drag myself out of bed until about 6:15am.  I did everything to get moving, but I was very tired.  It does not help that my stress level is through the roof and I feel like my body is fighting itself.  I am definitely going to go to bed earlier tonight.

7:50am Walk for the day out of the way!

9:50am Started laundry, Freelanced some, took buddy for a walk, did dishes and showered. To me this is a great accomplishment to get all of this done before I even start my work shift today! Now to start Robbie on his school work!

2:00pm Well, work shift is over and got calls I needed to get done finished! Now I have some time to do some freelancing and get some stuff done!

Without going into details for the rest of the day I had a medical issue that had to be dealt with so I was not as productive as I wanted to be.  After dealing with it, I was pretty much in bed at that point sick as can be. But as the true mom, boss, I am at least I got to get Robbie settled and Buddy walked.

Wednesday, 2-6-2019

Good Morning, Not really, I have been dealing with a medical issue since yesterday afternoon and am still feeling the aftermath of it now.  I was up at 5:15 this morning when my kids, dad's car alarm was set off.  I might have dozed on and off till 6:00am when my second alarm went off.  I did get up and take Buddy for a walk, but when I came home I lay in bed and answered emails because I feel like I have been hit by a bus.  I am hoping as its a long work day I can push through. 

After a wonderful visit to the hospital due to a medical issue I have been discharged.  I can not believe this experiment of mine has had so many issues. 

Thursday, 2-7-2019

Well, due to so many issues I have had some serious thought and am going to have to adjust my times and try to finish this experiment the best I can.  However, due to the fact I need rest I might just have to see what I am going to be able to do as I am actually pretty sick. I am hoping in the next day or so I might be able to get it back on track and give you a better understanding of what I have found.

Friday, 2-8-2019

Due to a mini health crisis the experiment had to be cancelled. My health was  unfortunately not cooperating and I ended up having to sleep between work shifts to get through what I was going through.  It was not a good thing for me.

However a silver lining to this whole attempt at this experiment is that it did work the way it was supposed to!  When I got up at an earlier hour I did get a bunch of things done and had a much more productive day!  It helped me get through what I needed to get through and I found some time to accomplish some of the goals I had originally strived to do at the beginning of this whole experiment. As my health issues kicked back in I am going to have to take it a bit slower. 

This experiment did prove if you apply yourself, you can indeed accomplish anything you put your mind to and being organized and on a schedule is possible. Since this experiment crashed and burned I have started to get myself in a routine so I can be more organized. The best thing about it is that it works. I hope, although my experiment went to the wayside that you can take something from this experiment.

-Blessings and Love

Angie





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Thursday, January 24, 2019

Fighting the Dreaded Anxiety Monster!

I am struggling real bad!
Why you may ask? Because I am carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders and I feel like everything in my life is crashing down around me.  I mean everything!

My Family
My Home
My Business
My Career
My Job
My Future
My Sense of Self

Why?
My Anxiety!

People tell me I am using it as a crutch! No, I am not!
That's the part that angers me the most!
I never used to be this way, but I trusted someone who wasn't supposed to betray me and  guess what it happened anyway. Believe me when I say, I hate having a pain in my chest every day! I hate feeling like the other shoe is going to drop.  People do not understand the intensity of how it feels to have the nagging worry that something bad is going to happen ALL THE TIME! The worst thing is the anxiety and fear can have you make mistakes that you normally should and would not be making. Things that you should not have had happen. What can you do about it? NOTHING!

I should have been asleep 2 hours ago! Why am I not asleep?  Because I am up working! Trying to get stuff handled like I need to be a good mom.  So I can function knowing I have to because that is what a Mom Boss does! Knowing that there is NO HELP for someone in my situation except the solution I find for myself!  I know that the people will think I am trying to use my anxiety as a crutch and that's not the case I bust my bum a lot to do what I need to do.

So this reminder is for those out there who thinks that the friend who worries about everything is faking it!  Believe me when I say I would like to be asleep in my bed instead of working and writing because I could seriously use a good night's sleep!  No this is not a pity post. This is a post to show how Anxiety can kick someone down even worse than they are!  Take heed my friends all it takes is one bad thing to happen to you and you are in the position I am in.

To a brighter future and plan,

Angie

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Tuesday, January 1, 2019

A New Year's Plan!

And so the Adventure Begins - Stemless Wine Glass - 20 oz

Happy New Years Everyone!

Last night I ended up falling asleep and only woke up when Robbie ran into the room, jumped on my bed and yelled Happy New Years Mommy! My twelve year old made it through and I did not. But in my defense, I felt so sick from a migraine and if you have ever had a migraine you will know you need to do anything to get rid of it.  After he woke me, I lay in bed just thinking about my goals for the upcoming year and how I am going to accomplish my goals for 2019! So I made this list so I can hold myself accountable if I fall to the wayside and try to give up.
So instead of making a New Year's resolution I have to decide to make a 2019 game plan on all the following aspects in my life. This list is in no particular order of importance of what I want to have done.

Business

As many know I do have a resell and homemade gift business. Last year my priorities fell by the wayside and I let things be as they are. This year, however, I want to move myself along further and make my business more successful.  Besides my online store I want to continue to work on my freelancing more as well and be a more profitable so I can be more free financially.

Personal Care

When you suffer from anxiety and depression like I do you back away from self care  or in some cases any type of care.  This sucks, but it does happen and you do have to fight it every day.  This year I have made a personal goal to continually take care of myself, to push myself even if I don't want to take care of myself.  Be it making sure my eyebrows are done or coloring my hair and everything in between.  I want to be the best me and if I personally take care of myself I will feel better about myself and have a much better attitude.

Job

I am very fortunate that I have found a really great job as an independent contractor.  As I continue to work this job I want to continue to excel and have more opportunity as I have already had. I believe that I can have a great future in this job or any job I will work and I am excited for the future I will have.

Home

I am vowing to keep my home cleaner and better maintained as I am going at it alone. Even if I do have to clean up after everyone in this home, I will make sure it's taken care of as I want the home to be clean and have a better feeling in the house. To me a cleaner home brings better karma and feeling.  I believe a home's energy can either be calm or hectic based on the home's cleanliness.

My Love Of The Paranormal

Many people know that I have always had an obsession with the paranormal.  I have a mission that to continue my quest of chasing the paranormal and to document it in pictures, videos or stories.

Faith

Last year I lost a large amount of my faith when it came to a lot of the horrible stuff that happened in my life last year and I have decided I will be coming back to my faith more this year.  I have always practiced Wicca and also have believed in god. So I will continue to pray to father god and mother goddess more as well as practice what I preach.  I hid my beliefs too long and have decided that I will not hide who I am anymore.

Blog

The Blog will be a weekly focus this year as well for me!  I have truly missed working on the blog and have been coming up with ideas for articles and fun things.  Once I have a car there will also be travel pictures and videos! I have waited to make things happen way too long and I will no longer wait to do what I enjoy anymore.

Writing

One thing that I do miss and vowed to keep up this year is my writing.  I will be definitely be continuing with all my books and you will see works in progress posted on the blogs until they go for a full edit! As I would love to see what people think about what I have written.

Kids

When it comes to my kids, I am vowing to be a better mom to my kids and pets. Sometimes with my anxiety I shut down and I really shouldn't so I will be more focused on being a better me.

Future

The kids and my future are always evolving and growing and I vow to make sure my kids, pets and I will have everything we need including a new home if needs be. I have always been afraid of what the future might hold, but now I am excited.  2019 is going to be a great year and I can feel it in my bones.

Health

In August of 2018 I started taking my health back in my own hands. I started working out and doing a ton of cardio work. Because of doing this I have lost sixty five pounds and I am working on breaking the 200 pound mark in the next month or so. I am also working on toning my body and getting back into great physical shape.  I am trying to get medical insurance again as I could not afford it before because of loopholes.

Travel

One more thing I want to do for the kids and I is as soon as I can get a car is to start taking road trips around Florida and the lower south USA.  I want my kids to have experiences in their life and not just staying at home. I hope to get a car by March and am excited for the freedom having a car will give me.

I hope that everyone's year is amazing and adventurous. I also hope that whatever this next year brings you experience love, laughs and hope.

Blessings and Love,

Angie