The Fears Of the Dating World!

This is the first pin I found when I was looking on my Pinterest page this morning.  This also leads back to a very private conversation I was having with a friend the other day after the full force of my impending divorce hit me. I have decided to be the crazy pet lady personally because after almost nineteen years of marriage the thought of going on a date again pretty much terrifies me. I would rather make my way through a demon-infested haunted house than even remotely consider the option of dating.  Now I can hear a few people I know with the cricket sounds behind them because I am also a hopeless romantic... The struggle is real.

I know moms who have been shoved back into the dating world feel the same way as well. I mean first, let's go with the fact the last time I dated, I mean really dated I had just hit legal drinking age. Now fast forward 4 more kids later I have just now started working on a confident body image and my self-esteem.  I mean after what I have been through, do I really want to even suggest to any brave soul who even has the courage to say hi to me "Hi my name is Angie I am a forty-one-year-old mess with a handful of kids, pets, and a granddaughter who is my heart and soul. Oh and at some point if you are brave enough to want to be in a relationship with me I have an Ex who has sworn to make sure my happiness is nothing and has done all he can to ruin my life."  I think if I am not working or with my kids, I am just gonna let my imagination be my guide and write book after book to save my sanity instead of the stress of dating.

Now don't get me wrong I might hope one day I will find the "right one". But seriously now that I hit the forty-one-year-old mark my dating range has gone down a lot. I mean I don't want to date someone who is older than me and won't want to do stuff. I lived the hermit lifestyle for the first nineteen years of marriage and it is not fun people. I like to video game, hike, go to events, hell I like even having backyard BBQs with family and friends. I like to write and that is a passion for me to the point I am working daily on my blog and books to see if one day that could be a career for me. I am losing everything in my divorce and I will essentially be starting over with my babies. I have no future retirement or anything because I was stupid and in love once before.  I don't want someone to fix my problems but to encourage me on as I am trying to fix them on my own.  When it comes to my kids I have raised them pretty much solo because their dad sucked at being a dad and only now he is attempting to be a dad so when it comes to my kid's HANDS OFF.

I am a basket of contradiction in all honesty.  I am scared.  Of what you may ask? Being alone. It hit me the other night when I was sick to my stomach that I have not had anyone there for me in a very long time who cared enough to pull my hair back while I was getting sick.  It made me sad to know that this is what my life has come to. To be this sad and alone with no one to tell me it will be okay.

But it will be okay.  Why?  Because I said so! I refuse to set an example for my kids to give up on love. I am not one to just be with someone because it's convenient. I want to be with someone who makes my heart flutter and gives me that wow feeling when I get a hug.  Its out there ladies and one day I will find it and so will you.

Blessings and Love,

Angie

Ways To Earn Extra Money For Christmas While You Watch TV or Shop!

As I around the wall I am currently hunched behind I whisper the words, "Six Months Till Christmas." With that, I duck back down and wait for things to be thrown at me. I am giving you all a few minutes to throw your stuff because I do not need to get hurt... We good? Okay than. But Seriously people this article is to help you not hurt you so if you have any questions pop them below and enjoy! Just so you know all these sights and apps listed below I use and are vetted not only by me but by others who earn a little extra moolah this way. The main link that will be updated after this is HERE! So check back once in a while and see what you can earn.

Before we go any further though let me get this out of the way I am NOT selling anything or want anything from anyone.  I am posting this because I am a Christmas fanatic and I have a ton of people who know me ask, "How can you afford Christmas with what little you make?" Guess what ladies and gents this is how. (It also helps year round as well with some of the extras) Best thing is 99% of this you can do while you are watching TV at night! I would suggest though create a junk email and use that when signing up for the sites because you can get a bit of spam once in a while! So shall we begin?

Instagc.com

This is by far my favorite money making site ever. I have made enough to cover my extras and the best thing is there are so many ways to earn not only Giftcards but once you redeem your first $50 in either direct deposit or Giftcards you can start redeeming via Paypal and most payouts are within a few hours of redemption. I do videos, clicks, and surveys and have earned $5 plus a day. But I know some people on the site earn a bunch more. This is by far my favorite earning site. Plus the mods and people who are in chat are wonderful as well it is a great community.

Swagbucks
Great site to watch videos answer surveys and take part in offers. Paypal and Giftcard prizes.

SHOPKICK 

This app is great because you can watch videos without being in a store. Or when you are instore pull up the app and get points for walking into the store, or scanning select merchandise. If I am out and about I normally will bank a $2 Target gift card. Hey, $2 towards a video game or clothes or makeup for my teens is $2 I didn't have before.

Gifthulk.com
This site has surveys, videos, guess the card and offers. You can earn PayPal or gift cards.

Lucky Day Scratch

Please use my referral code FX585L9
This is a nice scratch-off game because it gives you different ways to earn and you get different options of winning. First is random PayPal that accumulates and you can cash out at $10. Or you earn points that you can earn you mini prizes or gift cards. I do the mini prizes a bit because I have been using them as stocking stuffers/ gifts.

Fitplay
Earn money while playing games. I love this app you choose the games you want to play. You can earn points pretty quick for either Amazon gift cards or Paypal.

Mypoints.com
This site I have been doing for years! Take surveys, email offers, coupons, videos. A ton of great gift cards to choose from!

Lucktastic
This app has gotten a bunch of great reviews. You play scratch offs to win either cash or gift cards!

Vegas Scratch App
Use my referral code cxh5mu8 so we both get extra points.
I love this app Scratch-offs, surveys puzzles.

Perk Scratch and Win
This is a constant scratch off the app and I use this site daily to earn Amazon Giftcards!

Giftloop
Watch videos, surveys etc.

Rewardshopping.com

Beware I do earn some from this site but the amount is high to earn from. Such as the level I am at right now requires 277k in points to receive a 100.00 Paypal deposit. I have done it before but it takes a while to do. You get points by doing surveys, daily clicks, and offers.

Tellwut.com
Great survey site I use to get Amazon Giftcards.

Earning Station
Great app to do surveys and watch videos plus much more. Great for PayPal payouts.

Pocket Bounty App
Newer App for me but cashed out once and like it!

Sometimes Giving Up On Someone Is The Only Option....

Now don't take the title the wrong way because when it comes to my life I am not giving up but when it comes to certain people in my life I am shutting the door that has been held open for much too long.  I had held hope and faith that my soon to be ex-husband would come around and realize what he is doing to me but to our family. I had held faith that I could save my marriage. I spent the last week sick because of my allergies and sinuses and have been barely able to get out of bed. Do you know who took care of me the whole time? Myself and my kids. Every time he would be around there would be nothing but sly remarks and crude comments.  My own son has made the comments that his dad is not acting like a dad should.  That shocked me a bit that my eleven-year-old can see what is right and what is wrong along with my fourteen-year-old but a forty-year-old man can't.  Now you may ask why am I bringing this up? Because I made the mistake that I hope other ladies can learn from.

Seriously ladies and gentleman learn from my mistake.  If the person you love treats you like crap and you know you are doing nothing wrong then there is probably something going on behind the scenes.  In my case, he is adamant that there is not however from private sources that know us both I have been informed that he hasn't been faithful to me since he has come back since our separation and that makes a ton of sense considering if you haven't got a promotion you have been working on since you came back they are not testing you after three years they are using you... or your lying about where you have been. In the case of our marriage, he has been lying.

Another good indicator you need to end the relationship you are in is when you get blamed for stuff that you know you could not have done.  See my soon to be ex-blames me for everything.  When I say everything I mean everything.  My oldest will post pictures and videos of our Granddaughter to social media and it's my fault that he doesn't get to see it because he does not do social media. Now I understand that he doesn't like social media but when you are one of the only family members on both sides of the family who is not on social media don't expect our daughter to make a special exception just for you. Acting like an entitled asshole is one of the many reasons we are in this position now.  I even tried being nice and would show him and he is like I am busy... while playing a video game.  But it's my fault.

I have four other children my seventeen and eighteen years old have joined on the dad bandwagon. Why do I mention this because I have talked to him about how the teens talk to me and he asked what is he supposed do. I asked him to please have them stop to which he is like nope. For everyone who has known him for years, this is part of his manipulation ploy.  He did this when we had separated last time as well. My girls were younger than and realized what he was doing was wrong now they are at the age where they are moving out soon and he hands them whatever they want so they don't care.  I hope one day they will open their eyes to what he is doing because its wrong,  The way they are acting is wrong.  I love my teens and I will never give up on them it just hurts a lot.  But all of this is my fault.

I have had to start a go fund me page HERE!  Why because I need to get my little kids to a drama free zone and because I am seriously worried that their dad is planning something bad and I don't want them to become casualties of his so-called revenge against me.  I have even got to the point that I have to record any conversations he has against me because I am afraid of what he is going to do. (I tell him that the conversations are being recorded so he knows and as he has threatened to have me put in jail on multiple times when I called and asked the local sheriff what I should do this was the suggestion from them to cover my own ass.

This post was because I had have been asked privately whats been going on so I figured an update was in order. I am trying to get back into my regularly scheduled crazy and happy content.  I am currently working on new material that should be out daily soon.

Peace and Love,

Angie

You Are Special So Follow Those Dreams!

That's right REMEBER THE ABOVE! But seriously I am writing this because of the amount of shaming that goes on.  I am not even talking Mom shaming which is a horrible thing as it is but I am talking shaming in many different aspects. I am actively pursuing my writing and crafting, My Ex is constantly telling me as well as having our teens and his mom saying that I will never make it that it's just a dream that I shouldn't pursue.  Well, I say bull dung to that. My sister-in-law Pam used to joke with me that I should open a food truck that sold nothing but cookies, milk, coffee, and tea. To be honest I have considered it on and off for about six months but then decided I liked my writing and crafting a bit more than baking twenty-four seven. 

I am a firm believer in following my dreams and I am doing my best to pursue them regardless of what kind of negative comments I get.  Am I saying no I will not get a real job to support my children and myself of course not! I know I have children to care for but with careful planning and juggling, I believe I can keep all the balls in the air until I succeed in my dreams.  That is why I am becoming an advocate of following your dreams and reaching your life goal! I already self-published two books and I am working on a new one as well which if all goes well will be published on Amazon by the end of July!  Would I succeed in what I am doing if I listened to the naysayers in my life? I think not.

So my encouragement to everyone else believe in yourself and do what you think is right in your life. Take those first few baby steps and follow your dreams because the only person who is holding you back is yourself.  At the end of the day, the person you have to answer to for all your unrealized dreams is yourself. So look in that mirror give yourself the pep talk you need and work on your goals!  Now I am not saying quit your job to be a wood carver, but taking an hour or two a day to devote to your projects are an amazing thing if you are truly serious about it! Want to sell your wares post them on your local community sell site.  There is always a yes out there depending on how dedicated you are to your goals.

I hope as short as this is that maybe I lifted someones spirit and believe me when I say you are not alone we believe in you! There are moms and dads out there struggling with the want and need to pursue their goals.

Blessings and Love,
Angie

New Writing Adventure!

When you were a kid do you remember the choose your own adventures book? Well, I was talking to a friend of mine the other day and she said she wished there were adult versions of the choose your own adventure books. Why not I need a distraction from the novel I am writing once in a while so I decided to start one.  Why not right? The intro page is up and I am adding the link ==>

HERE

However, I am giving only one warning this is not a sunshine and roses type of adventure.  The deeper the rabbit hole goes there is a bigger possibility that it will become much darker.  The thing is you can end the book at any moment as well depending on which choice you make. I always liked a good adventure what about you?