It has been hell the last two months. Losing my job on May 8th set me back a year. First, I know I was not the only person affected by losing our jobs. I know this. I could drag the company that screwed over so many people, but to be honest, they are not worth it. I will write my own review on them soon; however, it is not worth the mental energy at this time to give them much thought. However, for everything this company caused me to lose, I hope they shut down for good.
Now I am at risk of losing my home. I have been searching for more steady work, and truthfully, finding a job has been such a struggle. I have asked for help, and it has all fallen on deaf ears. It does not shock me because I am the black sheep of the family. When I got pregnant at seventeen I was the family whore. Seriously, I was called that to my face; however, as soon as others got pregnant at the same age or younger, it was okay, but I was still a slut. I get it, though no one liked my Mom and Dad. If they didn't ignore the signs, they would have seen how much my parents hated me as well. I heard everything whispered behind my back, and to be honest, the acting when I am around is top-notch.
Mentally, I am in the car watching the rain on the windshield, thinking about what I am going to do. Physically, I am sitting at my computer working on ways to build my business because I know I am alone. When they say family helps family, they mean family only helps those who are convenient to them. It also may not help that I found out that the man on my birth certificate probably is not my Dad, and there has been some proof. I have spoken to family on both sides, and my family loves to redirect me.
So remember to check out the other social media videos and podcasts coming soon. I have added to all the stories, and a few books are being edited now and will be published soon.
Remember, everyone, you deserve to be loved. You deserve to be happy, and hopefully, we all have good things coming for us.
