I will admit that I have gone through a lot. In the past twelve months I can say I have definitely had a bunch of life challenges I needed to go through. I was also faced with a bunch of decisions that needed to be made. To be honest. I feel like I have gone from scared little peasant to finally allowing my inner Goddess to start to shine. Sounds cliche right? Well, let me explain.
As most people know I have gone through some serious marriage problems in the last few years. These problems have led me to recognize some serious hard truths about my life and my marriage's future in it. After a lot of self reflection, prayers and soul searching, I have discovered I am not in a good place and need to fix my future not only for myself but for my children. I have been beaten down to believe that everything and anything is my fault. Then not only that, but I am not worth anything. It took a large eye opening journey to realize that I am worth not only worth it, but I have more value than I have been given credit for.
All this self realization brought me to see what I needed to see. I started on a journey this past August to get back to myself and I have finally started seeing myself as the person I wanted to be. I have started stepping up on my blog and working hard to actually get back into adding content that is not only relevant, but what also makes me happy to write about. On top of all of that I have been actively been working on the Blogs Gift and Resale store! My confidence is finally returning! This has also helped me with my main job as well by having more confidence.
This self realization and confidence have taught me a lot about my personal life. The biggest thing is I do not need to have the approval of my partner to be happy. WHAT!!! That's right, I said it! My partner decided he wanted to throw away our marriage because it was too much work. Then I realized that was his problem, not mine. All the people I know who have successful marriages say marriage is hard and trying, but you don't walk away or give up. A real Goddess will stick around and fight for what they want until you see the battle is over.
So how does this all help you bring out your inner Goddess? Easy your inner Goddess comes out with your experiences in life. Then you need self determination as well. I myself am working with a determination to bring my blog and store back like I had three years ago. Making sure my inventory is quality and my gift store has more items has been a great experience! I am also working hard with my freelancing so I can support my babies. But not only all of that I have started getting my confidence back and am working my main job with gusto.
However, the biggest thing about letting out your inner Goddess is being yourself and do not tolerate anything. For example, when the kid's father is home, I am normally shut away in my room/office. This normally causes me to do nothing in the house and being absolutely miserable. Not today! Today I made a point to actually be out in other rooms in my house and actually had a fantastic day! I was productive and active, I felt happy and relaxed with everything I had completed today!
My best advice as someone who is figuring everything out still is you need to start making yourself happy in order to bring out your inner Goddess!
-Blessings and Love