Monday, May 21, 2018

Struggling

So I will admit I am struggling so much with things in my life right now. Seriously I am an adult and I should not have to struggle with people telling me I am not going anywhere and I am going to fail. Especially when it's me soon to be ex-husband or teenage daughters. You're all probably wondering why I am saying something. Because I know I am not the only person going through this right now and I know a lot of us ladies are going to hell. When my husband and I separated back in 03 I made enough money with my freelancing and crafting plus my job that supported my kids and me without my soon to be ex. My kids had what they needed and I did it on my own. Now those same kids are telling me that it's not good enough. REALLY ARE YOU KIDDING ME!!  This upsets me so much because these are the two teens who are now besties with dad because he would rather be their friend instead of their parent and let them do whatever they want. Well, I say no more. I work hard and have finally started making progress on both my freelance, blogging/writing and crafting/resale store. Ladies the only person who can decide your path is you so do just that.

However, let me give you some advice confront what people say head on because there are going to be haters. My soon to be ex-MIL tells everyone all these horrible things about myself and my home and people believe her because she is a fake Christian. (My home is in the midst of being remodeled by me!) My home needs TLC which I am slowly doing with the cleanout and remodel. As for the hate rumors I admit I eat my feelings. I gained 50 pounds since all this started and am only now starting to lose the weight. My weight has always been a struggle because I love to eat although I am active stress keeps the weight on. That and topped with a hernia and emotional issues I am lucky I have not gained more.

Most of all ladies you need to love yourself. I will admit I am overweight, my hair needs to be done, oh and my eyebrows need a waxing. I admit I have slacked and I am not one to preach it when I look like hell but tomorrow I am dedicating the day to taking care of myself! Because I am worth it and I don't care who says otherwise.

But most of all ladies remember that there will be times where people will try to hurt you and make you cry. It's hard to trust me I know. When my ex is home I have to hold in the tears and pray that none of them drop.  I can honestly say I was thrown away by the man I love not once but twice. But for me what's worse is he has also taught my 17 and 18 to do the same to not only me but to my youngest daughter because she told him and them that she doesn't approve of what he has done. It will get better ladies I promise! I have 1 guy in my life I can trust and that's the little boy who calls me mommy!  Despite being thrown away by my husband I still am a hopeless romantic and hope that one day I will find someone who will love me for me.

Well, all that's enough sap for now!
Till next time
Love and Blessings,
Angie


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